I grew up thinking that
repentance was mostly rooted in feeling bad, maybe even guilty, about some
thing I had done. I had plenty of practice! Often the threat of eternal
damnation spurred the appropriate feelings for which repentance was the response
and solution – and that usually meant ‘going forward’ at the end of a Sunday night
sermon and spending enough time at the altar to alleviate the bad feelings.
In the last few years that I
have realized that my understanding of repentance had more to do with not
feeling bad any more – than with with any necessary change in behavior. It was
possible for me to get good at feeling bad. And that was good enough. In fact, sometimes
feeling bad produced an emotional reaction that I mistook for the assurance
that God had forgiven me. So the strategy was to feel bad enough for long
enough for whatever it was that I had done. And that was repentance. Implicit
was the idea that, perhaps, I shouldn’t keep doing bad things – but changed
behavior was less the content and more the occasional outcome of repentance.
It was a bit of a shock to
discover that repentance, as it is used in the Bible, has to do with a change
of behavior arising from a change of mind – and that any feelings are more
about the desire for the new than they are about shame over the old. Repentance
is about living a new way in the light of a new reality. Jesus called his
listeners to repent – to live a new way – as an appropriate and necessary
response to the fact that the Kingdom of God was now within their grasp. When
John challenges his audience to “bear fruit in keeping with repentance” it is
interesting to notice how he responds to questions from the crowd concerning what
that fruit might look like.
He begins by suggesting that
radical generosity is the first demonstration of authentic repentance. “If you
have two cloaks, and another has none… do the math! And the same with food…” A repentant tax collector should only collect
the amount they are authorized – and not use their position to become wealthy.
The soldier under force of repentance should be content with their salary – and
not use their cover of authority either to extort money from people, or to make
false accusations. Nothing very revolutionary! Or is it?
Imagine what a community
shaped by this ordinary repentance – a community made up of people simply doing
their jobs, and not taking whatever advantage their position afforded them to
get ahead at cost to others.
John thinks that is
repentance – living a new way in the light of the Kingdom’s coming. I think he
might be on to something.
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