Bill Dogterom's occasional blog - reflections, poems, sermons...
Sunday, December 20, 2020
Fourth of Advent
Sunday, December 13, 2020
Third of Advent
Third of Advent
Sunday, December 6, 2020
Second of Advent
Second of Advent
to be present in the waiting
Thursday, December 3, 2020
Advent :: Hope!
Had the chance to reflect on Hope - the first word of the Advent season - but not hope in a specific outcome - Hope in a Person Who has come and is coming...
Advent :: Hope
(The sermon starts about the 22 minute mark.)
Monday, November 30, 2020
Celebrating Andrew
Imagine growing up in the shadow of one who appears larger than life in almost every description of him - one who seems to always have captured the camera's eye - one who seems always to have something say, even if not always the right thing, or for the right reason. To be Peter's younger brother likely brought its own set of issues - long before they ever were met by Jesus! And even then, he is was just on the outside edge of the inner circle.
It is fascinating, then, on this the Feast Day of St. Andrew, to take a closer look at the few stories we have - and to notice what he does from his place in the shadow. The apparent set of his heart is suggested by the fact that he was an early follower of John the Baptist's ministry of "preparing the way" for Messiah's coming by means of repentance. Andrew was one of the two standing with him when John let them know that Jesus was the one for whom they had been preparing. Apparently without a moment's hesitation, Andrew's response was to leave John and begin to follow Jesus - who invited him to come and see where he was staying. It was not long before Andrew does what we see him doing often - bring people to Jesus. In this case, it is his older brother - apparently trusting Andrew's audacious claim that they had found the Messiah!
Following a rabbi in those days wasa kind of entry for consideration to be included among his disciples - so it is no surprise that sometime later, when he was back home in the north, Jesus comes across Andrew and Peter fishing and invites them to follow him. In leaving their boat and nets, they walked away from everything that has previously defined them - their past, their security, their future - enticed by his belief that they could become like him! It is pretty clear that it takes them a while to figure out what kind of Messiah - what kind of Rabbi - he is... but Andrew is in from the beginning - and bring others along with him.
So it is not at all out of character when Andrew is the one who brings a boys whose sack lunch of five barley loaves and two fish, offered to Jesus, becomes enough to feed thousands of people on a remote hillside in northeast Galilee. I can't imagine what it was about Andrew that convinced that boy to give up his lunch - but it does suggest something about him that, once again, others were willing to trust him - and to follow him to Jesus. We see it again at the pivotal moment heading into the final week of Jesus' life. It is to Andrew that Phillip comes, having been approached by a group of Greeks in Jerusalem for Passover - but who wanted to see Jesus. Phillip seems to know that Andrew is the guy you go to get people to Jesus.
Grateful for the people like Andrew, who don't get top billing, who are known mostly by association, who live in the shadow - but who show up - and who can be trusted to bring people to Jesus. I want to like that.
Sunday, November 29, 2020
The First of Advent
First of Advent
Always darkest before dawn
we have heard
and it seems to be true in reflection
but
we may miss an essential awareness
that the darkness will come around
again
as will the dawn which makes it darkest
the Preacher’s observations remind us
of the essential return of darkness and
light
so routinized is the return of each that
we scarcely notice - and often miss
that, while repeated, they are never quite
the same
each cycle moving us incrementally forward
towards a telos grander than can be approached
quickly without regard to the preparation of
repetition with attention
were who is coming small enough to
receive without preparation we wouldn’t need
the training of repetition but such a One requires
that we prepare Him room
and that takes slowed and repeated and attended to
time
and so, in this darkest darkness we pause
we prepare
Sunday, October 4, 2020
Happiness does not yield to pursuit
Saturday, September 12, 2020
Emotional Autofill
For the most part, I have gotten used to - and even sometimes grateful for - the auto text feature in my word processing program or to help me along the way in texting. To begin a word and have the rest of the word or sometimes a whole phrase suggested can be a time saver - with the added benefit of the program being a more accurate typer than I am! Of course, it can go hilariously or embarrassingly wrong but proof-reading before hitting print or send will catch most of those.
The challenge for me these days is what I am coming to think of as emotional – socio-cultural shaped - autofill. Somebody says a word or a phrase and it triggers a whole emotional response, complete with requisite outrage. Words are less and less able to defend themselves. It apparently doesn’t matter what the speaker of the word actually meant - the emotional response to what they didn’t mean completely drowns out the rest of what might have been a conversation.
This is a problem in a couple of ways. First, it shuts down reasoned dialogue seeking mutual ground before it even has a chance to start. Second, it is dismissive of the personhood of the one speaking in the first place - a type of emotional cut off, calculated to restore stability to a vibrating system by undermining their intent. It is demeaning to, in effect, say, “you don’t know what you mean - so let me tell you what you mean.” And, of course, it usually reflects what is in the one who is emotionally triggered - they are responding out of fear or something like it which has devolved into anger.
This kind of emotional autofill is not reserved for the fearful or angry on only one side of any given issue. This is the essence of cancel culture - I know what you mean better than you know what you mean - and, based on my knowing, I deem you unworthy of being. Or, at least, of being part of the conversation…
You can hear it bouncing off the canyon walls of our political divide… Because you indicated an interest in pushing resources from the top where it has accumulated in obscene amounts to those at the bottom, at whose expense it much of it was acquired, you are a socialist - and therefore of no account and, on top of it all, deplorable. Because you speak the value of black lives, you must therefore be a marxist because others who say similar things hold that agenda. You cannot possibly mean that, in fact, black lives matter especially if they are the lives under present attack. Because you are concerned with what appears to be an observable pattern of the abuse of power by some under cover of authority, you must therefore be opposed to all authority and, for that matter, law and order in general.
And, of course, it goes the other way, as well - because you speak of the value of the life of the unborn, you must therefore not be concerned about what happens to that child once it is born into abysmal social circumstances. Or because you value border protections that assist in protecting the well-being and safety of the citizens of a country, you must be anti-immigrant and favor the sending of those in the country illegally back to almost certain death in their countries of origin. Or because you support a more or less free-market capitalist economy, you must be okay with the exploitation of the poor by the rich in a kind of economic evolution guaranteeing the survival and thriving of those with resources in the first place.
And on and on it goes… Because you are in favor of respecting the human rights of those with alternate sexual and gender expressions, you must therefore be in favor of pedophilia and of any and all forms of sexual behavior, and think the society does not have any business being involved at all. Or, because you are concerned with protecting the young, the naive, the innocent from sexual predation, you must therefore be in favor of regulating all and any sexual behavior and institution of morality codes for employment. And so on, ad nauseum.
In the meantime, we are losing the battle for humanity – for our own souls - and because we fail to realize we are all on the same team, we are all of the same kind, we all have a common Father, we appear completely unaware of the real enemy who seeks nothing more than to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. Of course, he has little to do these days - we are doing all the heavy lifting for him. Our emotional auto-fill may be his greatest strategy yet.
Sunday, August 30, 2020
Hope grows by sharing
Hope grows by sharing
like love
like joy
there is a moment of risk
in the speaking
in the launching of hope
into the cold world
it may be crushed by
broken-hearted black holes
of longing disappointed
it may get knocked
out of the air by
cynics arrows of outraged misfortune
prickly in self-defense having
been sidelined by fear
it may be co-opted
distorted into wish fulfillment by
desperation confusing faith with longing
but still
it may fly
it may soar
it may lift eyes and hearts
above the horizon to a new dawn
and
it may find others of
similar kind with whom
to unite forming
a chorus
a choir
singing the songs
of hope into the darkness
becoming light
Saturday, August 29, 2020
Repentance in Real Time
Today is the day on which Catholics remember the Passion of John the Baptist. John’s mission was to prepare the way for the coming of the Messiah by prophetically calling for repentance - a change of mind, heart, and lifestyle based on the coming of a new reality. For John, the new reality was the imminent arrival of Messiah. It is interesting, and informative for those of us who seek the Kingdom, to listen in on his conversations framing repentance in response to three representative inquiries. Luke 3:10-14 records the results of the Q & A which followed his preaching.
The crowd wanted to know what repentance looked like for them - John responds with characteristic bluntness. “If you have two coats, give one to the person who has none - and do the same with the food that you have.” Repentance - preparing the way of Messiah - seeking the Kingdom of God and partnering in its coming - looks like sharing with those who do not have what you have. The conditions which produced the disparity are not John’s concern here - he won’t let us hide behind the protective cover of the other’s supposed laziness, or character defaults, or justified economic inequity. It is enough that I have, and that he does not. Perhaps we can talk after we have leveled the playing field - but, given the soon arrival of Messiah, I don’t want to be caught with a closet full of extra while another waits without enough. Notice, this is not about generosity - this is about wisdom! When Messiah comes, the paradigm shifts - values are upended. You don’t want to find yourself wealthy in things that are no longer valuable - especially when you can use those presently valued things now to provide real wealth in the age that is certainly coming!
Not deterred by this challenging response, a tax collector presses in with the same query. John’s answer does not include taking up a different profession, but about doing the job but informed by repentance. “Collect no more than what you have been authorized to.” The system of tax collection was built for corruption – the amount authorized included a small percentage for the agent, but the system provided protection for that agent should he decide to add a surcharge to cover additional personal expenses. The result was that tax collectors were doubly loathed – for collaborating with the occupying force and for padding their pockets under cover of authority. To prepare for Messiah, John challenges them to collect only what they are entitled to. He is not concerned with their government work – perhaps his vision of the age of the messiah will require experienced, honest, and honorable tax collectors. Regardless, it is informative for those who now, at the end of time, seek the Kingdom. Do your job well, and don’t use your authority to take advantage.
Next up to the mic with their question were men in camo – soldiers whose hearts have been stirred by this guerilla prophet. Perhaps they recognize in him a kindred spirit – a warrior for a cause greater than himself. They respect him – and take him seriously. Their question is not asked out of idle curiosity – if a new order is on the way, if a new king is coming, how ought they prepare for his arrival? Again, it is interesting that John doesn’t tell them to resign their commissions or to take up another line of work. Serving in the military can be an honorable profession. But, like everything else associated with power, it can be more than tempting to abuse authority – especially when in such a hostile, hate filled environment where they are viewed as enemies. John responds, “Don’t take money from anyone by force, don’t file false charges – be content with your wages.” John is of the opinion that they can repent – they can prepare for the coming of Messiah – by treating those over whom they have authority with dignity and by acting honorably and without greed.
The parallels are not exact, but these three case studies give us a window into the practical nature of repentance – it is not about feeling bad for long enough until we can feel ok about feeling ok again. It is to change attitudes and behaviors in response to the awareness of a dawning reality. In our case, it is a primary way to prepare for and seek the Kingdom. In each case, it is about justice – especially exercised by those with power or authority or position or privilege. Those things are not to be leveraged for personal gain at the expense of others – rather, they are to be used for the good of those who aren’t similarly advantaged. The last speaks, perhaps, to those in law enforcement who are seeking the Kingdom. Even though they ought not, other officers may perhaps abuse their authority – driven by fear, they may hide behind the badge in their harsh treatment of those they are called to protect and serve. But Kingdom seekers uniformed in blue may not – they are called to prepare the way for the King by modeling what law enforcement, the exercise of appropriate authority, in the Kingdom might look like.
Today, remembering John, I am challenged to consider what repentance looks like for me. I want it to be true of me as it was of him – I want to decrease that Jesus may increase.
Sunday, August 16, 2020
Love Slows
Love slows
the rush of demand
leaves love standing
still
waiting…
knowing
rush hurry push shove grab get
miss
what love receives
in stillness… slowness
love knows
broken hearts
bruised bodies
crushed spirits
call out
for calm
for still
for slow
and so love slows
love’s pull
love’s attraction
is more gravity
than magnetism
glacial in comparison
but drawing equally
like and unlike
not requiring something
attractive
in the other but
trusting deeply
it’s unconditionality
But such a draw
inexorable
is slow
knowing fast
will break
will stumble
will fall
so
love slows
Love slows
Love invites and… waits
without demand
but with openness
to the moment
fear loosens grip
enough to risk
embrace
God is love
and slowed to
walk at human pace
inviting us
even now
to slow
to walk with
Love
to slow
to walk with
God
Thursday, August 13, 2020
Out of Pain... New Life!
Grateful for the opportunity to reflect on the creative capacity of the Holy Spirit to bring beauty out of ashes - joy even while mourning. Deeply needed, I think, for such time as ours...
Sunday, July 26, 2020
Wisdom in a Time of Distraction
Wednesday, July 22, 2020
Lord... Have Mercy
Friday, July 17, 2020
to intercede
Wednesday, July 15, 2020
New People!
New People
Friday, July 10, 2020
Pray. And don't give up on praying...
“Pray. And don’t give up on praying…”
It is unusual that such clear interpretive direction is provided. Usually, readers are left to figure it out for themselves – in fact, that seems to be part of the lesson to be learned. So, when Luke explicitly states the purpose of the first parable in chapter 18, it is worth noting. This, apparently, is not something we dare miss. It assumes even greater urgency when Jesus makes essentially the same point at the end of the story told.
The setting is all too familiar – a woman, essentially without power or position, is being taken advantage of in a commercial matter. Against all odds, she seeks protection under the law only to find that the one in a position to help her – and duty bound to do so – appears immune to her request for assistance. Perhaps it is the arrogance of his position, perhaps it is his hope to get a better offer from the opposition, perhaps it is simple disinterest – but he repeatedly denies her request. Given that he has the final say, it appears the matter is settled – with her opponent claiming the victory. But she is not willing to take no for an answer – nor is she willing to allow such a cavalier attitude towards justice to stand. So, having no other tools at her disposal, she keeps showing up with the same request. Wherever he goes, there she is. To the point that he begins to worry that, in her desperation, she might take further action which could well damage his reputation – maybe even give him a literal, as well as a figurative, black eye! Pure self-interest drives his granting of her request for justice.
In a manner typical of the rabbis of His day, Jesus argues from the lesser to the greater – if this unrighteous judge does what is right because of powerless persistence, how much more will God bring about justice for those who keep crying out to Him?
Jesus’ concern is not about the character of God. We can feel the weight on His heart when, in the next sentence, he asks plaintively, “But… when the Son of Man comes, will He find the faith on the earth?” In other words, will there be anyone left who still stands in the reality of Who He is – and, on the basis of that reality, is still interceding – crying out for mercy – for the earth?
It is a sobering question in our current moment. We find ourselves in all caps outrage for split-seconds of emotional explosion, only to speed off in another direction as some new shiny thing attracts our attention. Or, as is usually the case, get tired or bored. Persistence – a long obedience in the same direction – is not our strong suit – especially when it is persistence in prayer, the heavy lifting of the Kingdom. But in this moment, it our best hope for the troubles we are in and which appear looming on the horizon for anyone with an eye to see.
Jesus’ question remains unanswered. I want to be among those who respond in the affirmative.
Wednesday, July 8, 2020
Jesus - as He is Right Now!
Jesus - as He is Right Now!
Thursday, July 2, 2020
Desert Time
(apologies for the awkward splash screen!)
Desert Time
Sunday, June 28, 2020
center hold
Monday, June 22, 2020
Towards Oneness
Towards Oneness
Friday, June 19, 2020
Overlooking
Sunday, June 14, 2020
Beyond Hashtags
Friday, June 12, 2020
Jesus said...
Wednesday, June 10, 2020
Love > Fear
Love > Fear
Wednesday, June 3, 2020
The Clothes Have No Emperor
The Clothes Have No Emperor
An old child’s tale
tells of the naïve speaking
of one who doesn’t know any better
but… knows better. Not seeing what
others with vested interests don’t
see – but who will not, in fearful “wisdom,”
speak
It is a tale of imagined
splendor, woven of words
without substance
literally
without substance
woven words become opaque
in placating one who
cannot will not see
blinded by unimaginable
hubris
Our modern version
twists
as, blinded it seems,
by the same powerless pride
emperors and wanna bes
appear fully clothed
armored in Armani splendor
holding symbols of power
position, place that ought
have meaning
but… don’t.
perhaps another child
is needed
to point out
the clothes
have no emperor
and cannot make one
meanwhile we
living in exile
are subjects
not of emperor
but of king
most known
most fully known
in naked splendor
bleeding out in
love
clothed in glory
dazzling in splendor
becoming through
suffering
the King of all Kings.
Lord of all Lords.