What Shall It Profit?

Rich, fiery skyflame of setting sun

Pink-tinged delicacy of a barely there desert flower

Diamonds sparkling off a crashing wave

Lost to those without eyes to see

Deep, thick, rich stillness of a snowy field

Exploring melodies as birds greet the morning

Leaves gentle dance with a passing breeze

Lost to those without ears to hear

Rough tangled crevices, bark of an ancient oak

One way rasp on the underside of a blade of grass

Comforting warmth, refreshing cool water, textures

Lost to those without capacity to touch

Juicy sweet of fresh ice-cold watermelon

Bitter sweet of velvety dark chocolate

Tangy sweet lemon whipped into creamed delight

Lost to those without capacity to taste

Smokey sharpness of a new fire on cold night

Just there wonder of a new rose

Outrageous audacity of a proud plumeria

Lost to those without capacity to smell

Sudden, startling quickening of new love

Swelling, tearful joy at a child’s accomplishment

Settled, contented rhythm of old love

Lost to those without heart to feel

Wonder at a problem solved, a mystery explored

Satisfaction at a concept grasped, a thought created

Delight in the complex made simple, the simple complex

Lost to those without mind to think

Life requires capacity – expanding, growing, stretching.

Capacity is the gift of soul.

To gain the whole world

     But have no place to put it

     No workshop for wonder

     No place for pondering

What has it profited?

Receiving Your Life

David celebrates the provision of the Lord when he writes that, “the steps of a righteous person are ordered of the Lord.” To be righteous simply means to be in covenant with the Lord – to have decided to order life in line with Him, to follow His ways and, when you get off track, to realign, centered on Him. David has discovered the wonderful reality that God is involved in the daily-ness of our lives – that He is working in real time to accomplish His purposes in us. Earlier in that same psalm (37) we learn the core elements of this kind of life – trust in the Lord, be faithful, commit your way to the Lord, do good. The outcome? He will give you the desires that are built into your heart. You will be well pleased with the life you end up living.

This is reflected in Romans 12:2. There, after Paul has encouraged Christ followers to respond to God’s mercy by wholeheartedly giving their whole selves to Him, he goes on to suggest that the life they end up with in doing this will be proven to be exactly what they wanted all along – it will be perfectly suited to them, very good in every way, and completely satisfactory to them. You can hear the echo of Jesus’ reminder that those who cling to their lives will lose them – but those who release their lives to Him will discover that, after all, they are the only ones who have a life! They will have lost nothing by giving themselves to Christ, but will have gained exactly what they wanted all along – their own lives!

Perhaps the classic text celebrating this providential reality is Proverbs 3. Again the key is living in line with the covenantal realities of kindness and integrity. Following hard on that is the encouragement to trust in the Lord, to live counter-intuitively if necessary, to keep Him central in the way that you live. The person who lives that way will, over time, discover that the Lord has had something to do with the course and outcome of his life. And, that it has worked out rather well!

This does not suggest a life of blissful ease. Sometimes the steps of the righteous lead through the valley of the shadow of death. Some mornings you will wake up to breakfast surrounded by the enemies of your soul. Then it is important to remember that He knows what kind of life is best for you – and He is at work to give it to you.

So, the first response to the gift of your life in Christ – regardless of the specifics of the moment – is to say, “Thank you.” It is a central component to the receiving of your life.

Endurance

I have recently noticed the number of times the word “endure” appears in various forms and expressions in the New Testament. There is a whole lot of value given to sticking around through the tough stuff. In almost every one of Paul’s letters, the necessity of perseverance, of hanging in there, of not giving up, is a core value. In fact, James suggests that, with the proper attitude, we can take advantage of the winds that will inevitably blow against us  to build up our endurance. Over and over again John records the risen, reigning Lord encouraging the people in the local churches to whom he writes to endure to the end. Endurance is rewarded.

For the early church, endurance was the key to their survival. They had to keep pressing on, heading into the hard realities of life. Often persecution would come on the heals of other, more natural disasters – famine, drought, war, civil unrest – as well as the normal things that happen to everyone – loneliness, fear, family breakdown, sickness, death. Before Christ, they enjoyed status and standing in the society, had the protection of the state, sat to dinner with their family in peace. Now, and often because of their embrace of Christ, they have lost their place in the society, they are open targets for criminal opportunists, family members have turned against them. The temptation to abandon their new faith in Jesus must have been almost overwhelming at times. They have to simply tie a faith knot in the bottom of the rope and hang on – get through it – not give up – not quit. Sometimes the most spiritual thing you can do is stick around.

Today the pressures for most of us are not as extreme, but the need for endurance is every bit as crucial. You can’t parent without the simple determination to just not quit – to hang in there with your confused teen whether or not she comes out the other end. You can’t hope to celebrate your fiftieth wedding anniversary without making the decision to not give up at various points along the way. Every job comes with its standard number of bad days, bad people, and bad situations – including the job you are tempted to switch to! Every church goes through seasons of difficulty and discouragement. Every person who is seeking to grow to maturity in Christ will encounter tough times along the way.

The key is to have an attitude that rides the contrary wind higher. But even without that kind of attitude, the secret to getting to the end is not quitting in the middle.

Studies in Loss

News of losses today – the tragedy in Norway, where scores of people, mostly teenagers at a summer camp were killed by an apparently lone gunman, fully prepared for his mission the goal of which, beyond terror, is as yet unknown, comes on top of news of the death of Amy Winehouse, famous as much for her deeply soulful voice as for the topic which catapulted her to the top of the charts – and the life which supported her expressed response to Rehab. And then there was the email which let me, as one of his many supporters, know that career missionary and playful Juan Valdez look-a-like, Steve Graner had, on Friday just after noon, succumbed to the cancer he had been battling heroically for the past few years. There is nothing that links these stories – except that each is a crying shame.

More than ninety young people, part of a larger group, gathered for a summer retreat, without a thought other than that they would live forever and be agents of change and symbols of hope and perhaps be the turning point of their nations history . . . dead, the gunman supposed to have said that what he did was a “atrocious but necessary.” Their deaths come without warning, without sign, without time. If ever innocent victims fits, it is in times like this – people with first names and futures and new loves and fragile broken hearts and dreams just beginning to solidify into reality. Atrocious doesn’t come close. “How costly in the sight of the Lord is the death of His saints...”

A young, vibrant singer of lyrics carrying the depth of longing and playful teasing lightly on top of catchy pop tunes driven by a jazz blues gospel soul sensibility carried by an earthy, gritty vocal texture reminiscent of great soul singers past – Billie Holiday, perhaps, or Nina Simone. Maybe it was the pressure of her explosive fame, or the blinding glare of the world-wide spotlight, or the terrified little girl looking for a way home again . . . but her songs became her life became her song in an destructive spiral of drugs, alcohol, relational tragedy, performance mishaps – until parody became reality. The proximate physical cause of death is currently unknown – or, at least, unpublished. But the real cause seems clear – too much life without a developed capacity for it. “How costly in the sight of the Lord is the death of His saints...”

More comfortable in the streets and jungles and on the mountain tops of Columbia than almost anywhere else in the world, Steve embodied all that it meant to be a missionary. He had a grand sense of adventure – and the life of serving Jesus was nothing less to him. He loved Columbians, and because he viewed them as partners in mission rather than objects of mission, they loved him too. Endlessly joyful and relentlessly optomistic, every cloud had a silver lining, every rainstorm had a rainbow, every lemon a promise of lemonade…  At least that is how it appeared to me. It has been years since we talked person to person – but occasional emails kept me up to date with his battles – spiritual, personal, physical. In his death, a mighty warrior for the kingdom has fallen. “How costly in the sight of the Lord is the death of His saints...”

When Jesus stood in that graveyard and gave vent to the deep pain and frustration of that place and of all those losses represented, I don't think He was just weeping for Lazarus - but for all those claimed by death, past, present, future. No one dies unnoticed by the Father. No one dies unmourned by heaven. All His children are precious to Him - those who don't acknowledge Him no less than those who do.

Stuck in the Moment

The old joke has it that the turtle on top of a fence post didn't get there by himself. That is telling in a lot of ways - not least is the awareness that the turtle probably didn't have much to do with - nor desire for - where he ended up. Sometimes we are in the same place - stuck where we are, not sure quite how we got here, unable to move. And in desperate need of help.

Maybe that was the situation of the psalmist when he cried out, “I look to the hills. Where does my help come from?” When you are a turtle in the post position, there is no where else to look but to the hills! Your point of view is limited to what the geography presents before you. The question is not directed to the hills, however. It is inspired by them.

The answer echoes back from the purple mountain majesties, “My help comes from the Lord - who made this mountain and the earth it is on and the heavens the earth is in!” And now you’ve got a turtle with an attitude - an attitude of gratitude as he reminds his turtle soul of the full truth about his God. “He will not allow your foot to slip! The one who keeps you will not drift off in the middle of the night. He won’t slumber or sleep!”

As the dark night terrors give way to the blistering heat of the day, his spirits rise with the sun. “The Lord is your keeper - he is your shade - the sun will not smack you down during the day, nor the moon by night! The Lord will protect you from evil - he will keep your soul and set a guard over you wherever you go. Forever!” Bottom line, it is not over until the Lord says its over!

That provides great hope for those of us who feel stuck - paralyzed in the moment of our lives. Even in our stuckness, we are not out of His care. In fact, not being able to move - not being able to do one single thing to help ourselves - puts us totally and completely at God’s mercy. And what better place is there to be? While we may feel helpless, but we are never - never - hopeless!

And, seeing as how we are up here anyway, we might just as well enjoy the view - and its reminder of Whose we are.

Loving With All . . .

Thou shalt . . .

well - of course

but

how . . .

How to love

     with all my

     heart, soul, mind, strength

     when I can barely get them

     all in the same room at the same time

Each drawn to their

     own loves

               lusts

                    longings

     leaving integration

     to . . .

          whoever is left.

Wholeness beckons

     oh to be one

     the longing is

     all but

     unbearable

          to see

          to feel

          what might  be

     and to not know the

          way home.

And yet there

     in the longing

     is the answer . . .

Love God with

     all your heart

     all your soul

     all your mind

     all your strength

Love for God will be the

     force of integration

Love for God will

     draw me to Him

     to myself

     to you

          and finally

               home.

Holidaze

This is the time of year when, travel experts tell us, the vast majority of us take our vacations. More people will hit the road, stand in line at airports, or hop a bus during these two and half months than at all the other times of the year combined. A bunch of us will head home - wherever that is and however that is defined - to spend our down time with extended family. Another huge group will head to a handful of “most popular” tourist destinations - Orlando, Florida being at the top of the world-wide pile. For some, summer vacation is hiking in and camping out beside a virgin stream that only they and a couple hundred other people have ever seen.  For others, a four star hotel with gourmet cuisine is the ticket to relaxation and restoration.

Regardless of where we end up, most of us are ready to come home when it is over - but not necessarily ready to go back to work. We return wondering about the old adage that a change is as good as a rest - and are convinced that something got lost in the translation. Vacations, we discover, are hard work! At least the way most of us do them. They may involve some resting - but by far the majority of us pack so much activity into our annual average thirteen days that they bulge at the seams - just like the suitcases that allow us to take it all with us wherever we go! Perhaps if we were more like our neighbors to the north, with twice as many annual vacation days, we would come back more rested. Two weeks seems to be just enough time to get somewhere and come back - but not enough time to recuperate from the going and coming! Of course, if we imitated the Italians, with an annual average (average!) of forty-six days, we might never get back to work - but that is another story entirely.

In all of this, it is probably worthwhile to be reminded that vacations and days off are, like most good things, God's idea. In fact, so important does He think these kinds of things are, that He built them into the cycle of creation and highlighted them in the Ten Words that outlined the joyous life of His people. Much of the third book of the Bible deals with holy days and festivals with their communal celebration of life well-lived under God. How we got from there to Orlando, I am not sure, but the story might help us understand why many of us have holidaze rather than holy days.